Expectations

Well I recently finished my final exams and now got some time to just write stuff on my blog. As you may have noticed, I haven’t been on this blog for a while. Or maybe you haven’t, that’s ok….please notice me…

So this semester was the first time in a while where I spent the one week study period actually studying. I’ve learnt a lot, mostly that studying is kinda boring. It can get kinda interesting tho, I mean did you that a structural member can undergo not only shear stresses but also asfgqeu;oasuh…oh sorry, my head just banged the keyboard when I fell asleep.

When I know that there’s something I need to do but don’t want to, such as studying, I usually set a time later for me to do it. Knowing I have a full day to study, I shuffle my mental timetable and stick the “studying block” in the later timeslot to where I’m currently at. So in the mornings I tell myself that I’ll start studying in the afternoon, then go waste time and watch Oprah (You may be thinking why I think that 12.00am is morning…or why I’m watchin Oprah…but you know…wait, what’s over there!? A change of subject??). Then in the arvo I’m all emotionally tired from watching single mothers raise their children while maintaining 2 jobs in the economic crisis while secretly being a samurai…an afro samurai, that is! So I reschedule my studying to later in the night, then take a nap…a manly nap, that is! By the time it’s night, I’m too buggered to do anything, so I tell myself that I have a full-free day tomorrow so I’ll wake up early and get a head start to make up for the lost time. Then when my alarm goes off at 8am in the morning, I wake up and say “F**k it! Screw you demanding-me-from-yesterday-night, I can’t live up to your ridiculous expectations!” I then fall back asleep and wake up again at 12…just in time for Oprah…sexy Oprah, that is!

Well my life story…I think I should stop thinking of what I should do, and just do it. Thinking of consequences is just time lost on doing what you could’ve done now. From now on I’m gonna live the now and worry less how it lives up to my expectations. It’s time for a change now…ehhh, I’ll do it later.