I want...

Just came back from cousin's wedding not that long ago. It might have had something to do with the candle lit backdrops and the amount of booze that I consumed, but seeing two people get lost in each other's teary gaze as if they were the only two people in the room, knowing that they had found the person of their dreams. I know I'm sounding super corny, but it sure was...something...And it really got me thinking.

By no means am I just gonna rush out and just try to find someone to call my own. I'm not gonna be with someone, just for the sake of being with someone. But it still makes me wonder about those days where I give up going out to the city at night, and instead opt to stay home to catch up on those last minute assignments. What if, by not going, I missed out on meeting the girl of my dreams (if there even is such a thing)? Then I realise that that girl isn't going to be clubbing at 3a.m. Even if she is, I wouldn't want her to chat up a stranger, in this case me. I want someone who'll have the time of her life, while being contained when it comes to sleazy advances by randoms. I want someone who can catch my attention, and actually be able to keep it. I want someone who likes bands, but doesn't love them to the point where she won't listen to anything else. I want someone who can make me feel like what I'm doing is worth a lot, yet at the same time not enough, making me want to constantly improve on who I was yesterday.  I want someone who can say to me "Hey, how 'bout you hang out with your boys tonight while I hang out with my girls." I want someone who's waiting for me to call her, but is too stubborn to call me herself. I want someone who wants to be with me, but doesn't need to be with me. I want someone who'll not necessarily complete my list, but make me forget I even had one in the first place.

This girl of my dreams is, most likely, right now with her boyfriend, albeit a lame boyfriend. And she's already starting to know that he's lame. Probably a nice guy for her to be around, but no interest or sparks are happening between the two. And I want her to be with her lame boyfriend for now, so it gives her something to contrast me against when/if she finally meets me.

I want...I want...I just want to go to sleep for now...I'm tired, groggy and a little bit tipsy. Goodnight everybody, hope you all sleep well tonight.