Sunday, January 23, 2011

* I'm workin' on it


I know my updates have been few and far between, but I just wanted to assure you all that the frequency of posts is gonna pick up in the next couple of weeks. My good friend Will and I are hard at work filling out that book of ideas, so stay tuned!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

What the Hell's Goin' On?

I find myself in many conversations where I have no clue what's goin' on. My facial expression says "I am very interested and invested in what you are currently saying", whereas my mind says "Whhaaa?? Watchu talkin' bout Willis?" Yes, my jokes are very retro.

Such topical conversations include cars. My friends are into cars. I am not. They like to go into detail about car models and their specs, getting their vast knowledge of automobiles from various car magazines and conversing with other motor heads, whereas I get all my car related information from Mario Kart 64.

Almost always, I have no meaningful contribution to these types of conversations.


I often feel very stupid when I'm part of a conversation that I'm totally lost in, but I pretend to know what they're talking about. This is important for many situations - for example, acting like I know what's going on when my boss explains a job to me. It often gets very technical, and I have to use everything from my bullshitting arsenal to make it seem like I understand without raising suspicion.

This includes:
  • nodding in agreement every time he finishes a sentence
  • avoiding eye contact with him at all cost to hide my confusion
  • always concluding a request with "Yep, too easy"
  • acting interested by asking detailed questions, whether or not they relate to the job
Boss: "We're gonna have to do a boundary survey, securing any SSM's and their positional coordinates on MGA through the S6 unit."
Me:  "So what's the advantage of using MGA coordinates instead of Katy Perry's video clip of California Girls?"
  • And most importantly, saying long and overly detailed answers with confidence, even if I don't understand what it is I'm saying
Basically, I have to try anything I can to not get fired.




What are we suppose to do when we have absolutely no idea what's goin' on or why things are happening? You know the saying - "fake it 'till you make it." And yes, that is a very important skill to have, but it can only get you so far. Eventually it will all catch up to you, leaving you wondering "what the hell is happening!?"

It's inevitable that we find ourselves in these situations. Hell, I'm in it all the time, just trying to improvise my way through it most of the time, with absolutely no clue whether I'm right or not. But I'm learning. I think that's what it's all about - learning. We get lost in something, fail and fluke through it so many times until we eventually just 'get it' and move on until we're stuck again somewhere else.

What I've learned in 2010 was that life ain't easy yo. Shit, it's one of the hardest things that will punch any of us square in the face. It's daunting and overwhelmingly scary when that realisation draws on you...but we learn to be better, to chip away the burden we hold, to make things easier on ourselves, to keep going, and we learn to be at ease with our own little world. Till then, we just gotta wing our way through it.

So I'm dedicating the year of 2011 to learning. Here's hoping you'll teach me something this year =)

Monday, January 3, 2011

* Why so Rainy?

While I was waking into the shops, it was sunny, with only traces of clouds looming in the distance. When I got out with my trolley full of groceries, it started to intensely rain down on me and my shopping. The walk to my car was not very pleasant. Too much hydration for my liking. Someone needs to invent a trolley with retractable umbrellas, or at least waterproof sandwiches.